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purseonstrings2012-10-24 10:53 pm
stringmods) wrote in purseonstrings2012-10-24 10:53 pm
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Testing Post: TESTING HARDER
We hope you'll enjoy your stay. But is this just a dream? You remember the man who said you were here as a special guest...don't you?
[[OOC - Welcome to the test post! Don't worry too much about Persona stats or your levels here, just come out and make up a scenario about what they are doing. Try out your potentials and interact with the city around you! We'll supply some NPCs once in a while when you least expect it (after all have to test those out too, right?)]]
[[OOC - Welcome to the test post! Don't worry too much about Persona stats or your levels here, just come out and make up a scenario about what they are doing. Try out your potentials and interact with the city around you! We'll supply some NPCs once in a while when you least expect it (after all have to test those out too, right?)]]
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[He strokes his chin slightly with a hand, eyes lidded in thought.]
I don't know...I think I would prefer Godhood, really. That way you don't have to feel anything. You can just live life and not have to worry about your own problems anymore. You just watch everyone else.
It would be nice not to feel things, anymore...
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No no no no~ you would give up such raw passion for emptiness? That is- that is sad. Very sad, it makes me sad...
[Leo pressed his hands against the eye slits of his mask, as if sobbing into them, although he made no such noise]
To feel is to live. Gods exist but only exist, humans exist yet live. Why would you give something up like that? I do not truly understand humans who wish to become something that is empty and without such beautiful emotions.
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[He looks away and folds his arms, as if he can't bring himself to see just how much Leo is upset.]
Because I have already become something which should be without emotions, but they're still there. The time of being what I was is over. That's gone...what do I do for people with my emotions? Nothing. They just only cause harm, really.
[And he says, with some element of finality:]
I'm a dead man walking. There's nothing "alive" about me.
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[Leo drops his hands, and steps forwards, his yellow eyes bright behind his mask]
A dead man would be cold and lifeless. He would be robotic, yes? You are not robotic. You hold regret for what possible harm you give other humans with your own despair, and that is something that marks a 'good' human, yes? From what I observed, those that are considerate to the point of self-loathing are too full of goodness, that it begins to poison them.
[There was a pause]
Although I am God, I admit that I am not omniscient, not in this form. Perhaps it is as you say, perhaps you are a dead man walking, but there is still life sparking deep within you. Human tenacity is something that perseveres even in the face of human despair...
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[He inches away, as if afraid that Leo is going to reach out and touch him, but there is that dark glimmer in his eyes that says something more than his words ever will.]
I mean, it might be complicated to understand, I know, but the me that you would've met several years ago was a different person. And that person is dead. I'm something different now. No matter how human or not I am, nothing can change what I did. Nothing.
[ooc: I'm really loving Leo/Calypse/Amant so far, and I noticed you don't have icons yet for the account- do you want me to draw up a couple for you? :)]
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[Leo cocked his head to the side, letting out a small whistling trill]
How to explain...? I see many humans wallow in despair for past sins, but I do not understand...regret is given, apologies are given, therefore there is no need to dwell on it any longer. Humans are capable of evolution, or metamorphoses, which I am eternally envious over. You are brimming with this passion, and you allow it to shift and change you for all eternity.
[He pressed his hands against his cheeks]
That is true beauty... you have committed a sin, yes? That sin has allowed you change and morph into who you are now. You are filled with despair and anguished, yet you have changed into another person. You said it yourself, that person who committed the sin is dead. Why should you carry the guilt of someone who is no longer you, and no longer alive?
[Leo spread out his arms then, laughing softly]
Become unburdened! Release your shackles! Complete your evolution into a new person entirely, and shed the poisonous past that snaps at your heels!
[ooc: yes, I'm really loving this as well! Definitely must continue this CR when we're accepted into the game this app cycle - fingers crossed! And that is sweet of you to offer! I have someone doing a commission for ten of the icons though, but if you want to draw some up as well, I won't say no. I can pay a commission if you want <3]
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Because...I don't know. Well, okay, I kind of know. If I abandon everything that I once felt, everything that I believed in...then I'm afraid of really becoming a true monster, just like my Persona is. So, that's why it would be better to be a god...you aren't a monster, but you don't have the regret, either.
[He lets out a sigh.]
So, while I would love to shed my past, I think it's just the only thing that keeps me-what's the word- grounded? I guess? I mean, I'm a different person, but that doesn't mean I want to just let myself go free. I'm afraid of what would happen with something like that...
I know you don't know the whole story, really, but it's more complicated than just letting go. [And there's a dark look.] I don't want to be like that man...
[ooc: Awww, I'm glad! And definitely, definitely, for sure! And that's fine, I don't need a commission, I'll just draw it because this thread has been really fun so far and I just want to show my love for it, so I'm okay! Just send me the reference and maybe a couple of emotions that you haven't commissioned for yet, and I'll do them. <3]
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[Leo tilts his head down in intense thought, his hands dropping down to hand loosely by his sides. His brain was beginning to hurt from this confusing conversations. Humans were far more complex than he anticipated]
I...see. So, you do not wish to shed the past, for fear that you would forget the lessons learned from it...? Do I have this correct? This is incredibly complicated...
[ooc: aaaaaaaaa you do not know how happy it makes me to hear this! I was nervous about playing this OC since I wasn't sure I'd portray him well enough for it to be fun, so this- hrnghags. Ahah, I'm trying not to keysmash but, I really truly appreciate it! Thank you thank you thank you! You don't mind if I send reference in a PM do you? I don't want to clog up my tag with too much ooc notes
like I'm doing right now oTL.]no subject
[And one can see that some door has been open and shut just as quickly in his mind- he holds himself tighter, a pained expression on his face.]
She was...she was the only one I really cared about. And painful though it may be, losing her memory would be the most cruel thing of all. I did everything for her. Everything.
[ooc: Hahaha, he is very fun, indeed! And that's fine, send a PM. :D]
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[Leo suddenly clasps his hands before him as if in prayer]
You did everything for her, and even cling to her memory despite it bringing you pain. That is true love, I believe, something purer than my attempts to imitate it. You love her despite the pain.
[Leo suddenly seems overwhelmed with emotion..!]
One of the most beautiful of emotions! Love and despair, two extremes that are as tangled and never ending as an ouroboros. It is...more vibrant and true to humanity than any other feeling.
[ooc: will do! Thanks again! ;v; ]
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[Well, oops, not really true love, but familial love is pretty strong in itself, as well. Sam knows. His face lightens, somewhat.]
You seem to view a lot of things like art, don't you? Like seeing a painting in a museum- you weren't the one who painted it, but you still like it anyways, i you get my drift?
[ooc: Not a problem! <3]
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[Leo made an excited noise, fluttering his hands a little]
Such as - photographs! A wonderful invention! They capture real life better than any painting, for it takes a cut out of real life itself, and hands it to you on paper. It is also instant!
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[There's an amused sort of quirk to his mouth.]
Oh, you haven't seen a digital camera before? That invention shows the photo you just took and allows you to change it or discard it immediately before you print it, you know.
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[Leo sniffs]
I dislike posed photographs anyway. They're fake.
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[And he shrugs at that.]
Really? I don't know, I like them because at least they get everyone into the picture...what if one person turns away or blinks, though? That would be unfair to the person not to get represented in the photo, I think. Posing eliminates that.
uwaaah sorry for the delay...
no problemo!
[He actually lets out a slight laugh, looking up to squint at Leo with lidded blue eyes.]
And you being a god...you're perfect in your own mind, aren't you?
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